A Disciple's Thread

[NoNun2]

[NoNun2]

Like… I don’t really like your dad

Don’t let me find out pacs money funded my torture!

[NoNun2]

[NoNun2]

Tied

They on my body but they not my God
Figure it out figure it out - I fucking did and all it left me was scarred
They not gonna stop until they get the answer they want
And I ain’t living sick for no man especially A dope head who front
Or the female cunt that only Jesus would want
My man? Now he just feel so good and fit like a glove
Peace, comfort, and trust
And all the other shit that bad girls gone good dream of
His pharmone aura
Got me begging - ahora
But…
My brain is officially out of order
And every other excuse they made so I couldn’t get a sip of water
Please believe me… I never knew I had a daughter
Mental health is real
I need sleep to heal
Poke tapped and prodded but nobody tell me what’s real
And I still don’t know how i feel
I just don’t want to beg or make light of a hater
Just wondering wtf is all the hate for?
pussy ass bitch just a low level whore
I suffer for no man, no one never again, and no gun never no more!
Love 2/4

[NoNun2]

Nailed it today at school and got me a new client! Amen lol

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Retouch and highlight

[NoNun2]

[NoNun2]

[NoNun2]

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I lost the picture again… how do they get in my house?

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Tired of everyone fucking with my head

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And not telling me what’s going on

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Yeah I’m pretty sure my ex help them now too

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Wish he knew he better than that but I tried

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I feel like going on strike… it’s too hard but I can’t do that to my mom and need my own money

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I have no friends… did they do that so I’d be desperate and go to him? HELL NO HE DISGUSTS ME

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They believe their own lies and I wouldn’t go to him even if pac asked me himself to

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I prefer to die then have to… why would I have to? Yeah right

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Him and my old friends just swear they tricked me too… NOPE

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I refuse to live in their sick weird world and they won’t let me get back to mine

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You have them on conspiracy, attempted murder, negligent homicide, accessory to rape after the fact, false reporting… WHAT THE FUCK IS THE PROBLEM?!?!

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How the hell do I get them away from me and out of my flesh

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Does anyone even realize that my life and dreams are OVER because of them and this

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They paying people to hurt me but expect my mom to support me when they make me this sick

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They paying people to cover it up yet I don’t even have my own money and haven’t in a DECADE

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Everytime I try to get back up I get a spirit infection and forced to share my body tapping and tracing and shit which I really can’t stand

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On top of my mental illness which they refuse to give me disability for too

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What’s going on and who is running this shit? My dad chose to die instead of telling me and I want to know what the fuck is going on

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It takes 3-5 hours to fall asleep cause they won’t stop talking or asking questions or talking and waking me up as soon as I do fall asleep

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The pain, the sleepwalking, the sick shit, the mentally abusive shit - why don’t anyone help or tell me and make them stop?

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They threw sick shit during sex to get me off him and I think a spell too cause it always go opposite and I dont like him for real anymore - hate and iw is getting stronger

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They have done this to every relationship I hav ever had and I wanr to know who and why even though I’m sure it was the fraud them bitches set me up with on 4th of July

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Idgaf who your brother is LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE

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They know that, they ALL know I’m not like that - just like pac been trying to tell you all. I WANT MY OWN FUCKING MONEY

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Why are they allowed to put THEIR SINS IN MY BODY?

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Is there any way to fix and prove that cause I’m tired of strangers coming up to me to say if I was you I’d kill myslelf

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Please I didn’t do shit and lived my life to answer to God the best I can

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Why won’t anybody help me or fix it?

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If I tell my mom they are sleeping me and robbing me again I go back to mental HELLLLL NOOOOO

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It’s not even my religion or culutire so HOW?

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Isn’t there a way to prove who and fix it?

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And the voices… I deal with the medical ones too much for their extra too

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I was sleeping and kept waking up because I kept feeling that gross nasty bitch in my body for some reason

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Them and the fraud is why it’s gone wrong all these years and made me thus sick and refuse to stop or go away

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I’ve told him no afleazt 3-4x

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I didn’t give them my body either though and it’s gross

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Feels like bestealiry gross the growls in my stomach and such

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I’ve told him no afleazt 3-4x

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Iwww his thumb too (throw up)

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They’re trying to make my thiumbs like that too… SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME AND FIX IT

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Please fix my thumbs and body ��

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That’s why every time I start to lose weight I get fatter again STOP

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Why are they allowed to change my body that my god gave to me and not them

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They didn’t even ask perrmossion

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They’re forcing me to share my body… typing for me and everything to that I always have to fix… NO… ITS MY BODY AND I DONT WABT TO SHARE WITH THEM OR LIVE LIKE THIS

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I hear them on my roof and I’m mentally ill dealing with real voices that make me sick

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LEAVE ME ALONE I DONT HAVE TO BR THIS SICK

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Yes they do know what I’ve been thru and stalked me and tricked my friends and family since 97

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Maybe 96 when my besties got mad at me and wouldn’t tell me why

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I refuse to be disrespected in order to find out wtf is going on

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They ruined another relationship as soon as we started building again by making me sick and lying to my bf

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IM MENTALLY FYCKING ILL AND DONT KNOW HOW TO GET THEM OUT OF ME OR STOP - I HAVE ZERO DEFENSE IN MU OWN FLESH

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You can’t change my culture body and religion just cause you want what? Money? Cause I don’t have none

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I wouldn’t be with you for a trillion dollars

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I hear your disgusting voice shut up and get off my roof and stop stalking me… I don’t even barely know you!!! We never even dated!!!!!

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You pretended to be pac

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Why? wtf do you really want?

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And let me guess… she pretended to be me?

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Is that why everybody hates and disrespects me or why I got judged and dropped after the gang rape you guys knew would happen if you went a second round? But nah you went again and pac u really think they went AGAIN NOW TOO

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I really don’t know what’s worse then getting assaulted up and down the east coast with nobody helping or believing
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But they went again

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I’m not into witch craft and have no clue how to fix me or make them stop

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Please make them stop changing the way I walk or talk case I’m good and better how I was… who knows how to fix this and me?

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I can’t stand it I can’t stand feeling like this

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I can’t stand their world either

[NoNun2]

I’ve been shaking since my relationship went to a point of no return… that’s means reeper is with me so I feel safe… fucking try it

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They brought back my ashtray too

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But never the money they steal or credit cards too

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They refuse to take no for an answer - this isn’t my religion and I refuse it to be… GET THE FUCK OUT OF ME

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STOP FUCKING STALKING ME TOO!!!! I WASNT THE FUCKING STALKER EITHER AND YOU KNEW THIS

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Someone was coming in and out my house when me and my ex broke up in like 2004 - there was eucalyptus from my plant on the lawn and assumed it was a dirty cop

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So you saw all the shit go down and never helped either - I ALWAYS LIVED MY LIFE LIKE SOMEOJE WAS WATCHING CAUSE MY DAD WAS BEING BLACK NAILED TOO

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WTF IS THE PROBLEM

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I was clean why sweat it I didn’t realize it was to such extreme

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Then I relapsed and saw the dissapoint in the yankee gas guys face who was parked in front of my house - again why sweat it thought they’d realize I went straight and would go away

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The worst I ever did was sniff cocaine

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Oh boy you surround me with dope heads but boy that will never be me

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INDIDNT DO SHIT AND YOU KNOW JT

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Why do they think they can force me to change my religion? NOOOOOOOO

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GET OUT OF AND OFF ME!!!!!

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I don’t care if you had the fountain if youth get off me you make me sick even more then you already did prior making my mental illness worse on purpose

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It’s feels FUCKING DISGUSTING

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Sorry I don’t fuck with strangers in the shade or trust them… I’m an eye to eye bitch… I don’t listen to or entertain the voices in my head either

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I don’t have to be this sick if they just leave me and my body alone

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My old friends was fucking selling my free will and I’m just trying to figure out how they fucking got it to begin with

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Since 2001 caught a second when she was there and I walked in and we kissed in front of her and ah hah again on 2012 or 2013 - don’t I get a say in your marriage ceremony’s?

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You my priest and church now?

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How the fuck did them socio bitches get my free will to even begin with?

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Why does everybody think it’s ok to do to me?

[NoNun2]

That’s their culture and religion not mine please get them off of and out of me

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They were trying to do the shit for me

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The second I typed die to myself I ran out of work crying cause I knew they were back and sure enough here comes oh boy who allegedly saw me on the highway which is impossible - he would’ve thought I still lived in NC but nah he saw me in a car he never see not my style in a city I don’t live in with my hair curly which is soooo rare

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THATS why the only time the wouldn’t do the sick shit is when I was with my boy too

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How does it get worse then up and down the east coast though… SOMEONE better be able to stop this shit

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Yes you have the phone convo where u told her I was too?

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I told her*

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I’m actually glad you told them I was talking about you then made me… die slow bitch

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The one where she said she lived in ct when they did that…

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Check the phone bills of when she was at court when I stole the car… we weren’t friends for 3 years prior - please find ONE phone call we had - as I just typed treason to my fucking self

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She called and apologized a couple weeks later and I thought she grew up and forgave her

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Thought I was hallucinating but that’s why I was going off on the cop

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I want my privacy, I want every body out my head and body, I deserve to have boundaries

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I want them to throw their trash some where else then me

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AND MY FUCKING BODY AND FREEWILL BACK

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They give my parents room the fucking finger every time I walk by… THAT ISNT ME

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I just told you I don’t fuck with strangers in the shade GET OFF MY BODY UNTIL I CHOOSE WHO

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Cause I trusted it was god before and they sexually and physically tortured me

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Fucking with me doing all that miraculous shit GO HEAL JAYME

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But not if you going to do extreme painful and sick shit to her too… and get her permission too

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I’m trying to make money and best wishes for people and they stronger on the hate shit? HOW?

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If this bitch don’t stop and get out my fucking body u can’t go to school… got stuffed on tip tonight probably cause she saw her and not me

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I hate your third world shit and want to go back to my own religion

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I trust pac to do it for me

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All she had to do was get a cleansing - I know why my psychic told her that now… but no she rather throw her trash and blame me. WHAT DOES MY LIFE OR DREAM EVEN HAVE TO DO WITH YOU?

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I’m not a roach and able to admit reality to myself - how am I in a sess pool with them? Them over me too?

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Because the bitch that socio and can’t admit fault in herself… she’s too great and good

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And you guys so fucking stupid to believe them I get audited twice on taxes… you ever even bother to check theirs?

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Now I know why I tripped over her waking out my bed room when we were roommates - what did she do or write that was allegedly me?

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BITCH I HAVE A FUCKING DAUGHTER TO GET TO… if you knew that IM GOING BALLISTIC

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Cause last time we talked she laughed and said she was with her family and hung up… that was 10+ years ago and we weren’t even fighting

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I guess just like fat hoy they get paid and then I’m gone

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EVERYONE knows what’s going on but me and they won’t tell me

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NOBODY WILL FUCKING TELL ME WHATS GOING ON

[NoNun2]

Embarrassing? Fucking embarrassing? YOU DONT KNOW SHIT ABOUT BEING EMBARRADED

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How about a teenager lifting your shirt up when you gaining pounds by the day showing her friend, touching my belly while laughing and running? How did the twisted bitch know I match my underwear? How about your own bf laughing with a rapist about my hair

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I’m screaming rape everywhere cause I’m coming back to and everyone knew that too but again nobody tells me that

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Looking at me, touching me and worse, taking pictures

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Somehow making me look ugly

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I can go on for years about humiliation

[NoNun2]

My mom made me feel better… I told her how they robbed me and took my ashtray then put it back 2 days later and she busted out laughing

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She was crying when I told her what they did to me though and how u had the freak 3x on DNA and they wouldn’t even check

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I hate my aunt… they should do it to her and tell us then how to cope

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Is he going to start raping me again?

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I think it’s a psych

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Idky I just don’t want to lay down

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I’m a miss school today… they do it and knock me down everytime that easy

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Why won’t anybody help me and make them leave me alone?

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My step dad was being cool as fuck too and gave me a drink so I can try to sleep but idky I don’t want to

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I kept waking up this morning because it’s so icky when h feel like her instead of me

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That’s what made me so sick today and it’s not over or stopping

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Boyfriend gone… here they go again… I told my mom if it’s some rich man I’m gonna ice pick him on the police station lawn and made her promise to visit me n jail

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That’s what made me so sick today and it’s not over or stopping

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I think it’s a psych I know it’s not pac…I think they so mad cause I keep going to pac

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Like… I AM insane I AM going to do the same thing… but why are you exempt? You’re the one going rounds doing it again and again…isn’t that the same thing too?

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Expecting different results

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Nah I can’t be with no mother fucker that wants me in a hoop d and cheap

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I bet you he old as fuck too

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Movie suggestion: French Exit

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They fucking with my money again and won’t let me charge on my card

[NoNun2]

To: Fix You



If only I knew they would’ve told me if they was really true
And all that shit they did to use me to get back at you
I don’t know what to do
Just have to make sure they can’t do this to my daughter too
My biggest mistake was believing the words I love you
That’s what they say before they stab the knife into my back
And then they tie me so I can’t defend myself or attack
Them bitches wack
They don’t have a clue what they do
And I’m sure they expect Jesus to just forgive them too
Idk idc I’m just so mad I wasn’t aware
And every hateful word they whispered to my soul
Like at least she did something with her life as I was growing old
COLD… cold as fuck
Bitches can be so trife
I’m not the one that’s desperate to be someone’s wife
I’m the one that lives for the day cause tomorrow not promised and can be the end of your life
And yeah I like war more and slow mo, and dead stops paying homage and another save
And not one picture left but they never counted on the memories back to me that God gave
I still visit his grave
Pac gonna come back for me before early onset dementia does
The whole time we spinning he was just trying to remind me what we was
And I’m a tell him all about what jealousy does
And how they would’ve had their own dreams come true because
I don’t get it cause I’m the easiest person to talk to
My delivery might be brash but they knew
And that’s what happened - I protected the people who were hitting me too
Never again no more and they dead if they try to apologize to me one more time
Don’t worry about me im fine
Yes NOW they finally told me my own crime

Pac if I knew I NEVER would’ve cheated on you… and I believe we finally proved that too

Do I date or do I wait?