To: Sleepwalking

Sleepwalking

I guess we was all in the block that day in someway
If you say they “came with the gorillas and chokes that day” I’d say no way
I guess it’s in my heart how for some how easily I fold
But when it come to understanding I’m still too naive im told
But I guess it’s all real and just how I feel
Wondering if life would’ve been different if I was the one that lived behind steel
I thought they closed my site today
Wondering if that meant I should just walk away
But who then would be beside me when I smile
The police said when I turned myself in that I walked 5 miles
And they not putting me with them cause I’m down
I mean to them when and how I become such a clown
Tell me I didn’t come from a town that rough
But truth be told if they even set it would it be enough?
He told me he just wanna talk some shit
I told him I been doing that for a bit
Yeah I get it done in a slower way
But I love that pitch hit grin
It make me smile and I’m more positive than him any way
And today I prayed… I prayed he heard me say
Like angel don’t betray me today like no way
I really do hear every word that they say
I’d give it to them before I take it for myself
Cause i have to be concerned due to my mental health
It’s not rewind the time back to better days
Cause I know pac can be too stubborn in his ways
I’m not spoiled or selfish and it’s rare idgaf
Remembering my hand under my thigh where I hold it when I had to tuck
I was born in 78 not knowing my own fate
And I could be part that debate
It could’ve been me
Cause I was flashing my eyes at every diamond in the dirt I see
Fuck it I put it out there anyway
Just stepped out an angels way
But nah they don’t care to know what it feel like when you on the board that they play
Who say?
You got to be kidding me… he down 3 and you 2 too?
Tell me when did life become so superficial to you?
Turning back to back against a wall
God damn I just saw another angel fall
I guess we not keeping score today
Cause where I live and zone just too far away
My lawyer warned me not to throw egg in his face
Why would I? he won my case
But the case he faced?
Guys what’d you think I would do if this shit popped off in 92?
But we can’t rewind the time so I’m just hoping to get this message to you
Walking, still walking without a clue
Nobody tell me shit but expect me to put it all together myself too
If you were me, what would you do?